12-10-2017, 06:36 PM
Dear Katie,
thank you for your post. It is good to have you back! This is what I meant a few months ago when you decided to leave this forum. I am glad you reconsidered.
The insight of those further on their journey is invaluable for us, who struggle with our first steps.
I agree with many things you have written and I understand it. I am in a situation when my wishes begin to clash with wishes of my girlfriend. Each step forward has to be negotiated with her and when I am happy after making some progress I am even not able to share my happiness with her, because for her it is like another step to loose "her man". However, she usually does not react with anger but with sadness. And something like this is really tearing my heart. Seeing her sad because of me is terrible and all the joy caused by my more and more developing female "self" is only short-lived. I think that her reaction is mostly because she understands my condition and therefore she is not able to be angry. And I believe that she is torn between her love to me and her needs. She keeps telling me: "It would be hard with you, but it would be even harder without."
But right now, I am stuck - she is sad even when I want to come out to other people and I believe that just mentioning HRT would mean the end of our relationship...
But I don't want to make any important steps without her knowing.
It is always difficult for both partners involved.
Poly
thank you for your post. It is good to have you back! This is what I meant a few months ago when you decided to leave this forum. I am glad you reconsidered.
The insight of those further on their journey is invaluable for us, who struggle with our first steps.I agree with many things you have written and I understand it. I am in a situation when my wishes begin to clash with wishes of my girlfriend. Each step forward has to be negotiated with her and when I am happy after making some progress I am even not able to share my happiness with her, because for her it is like another step to loose "her man". However, she usually does not react with anger but with sadness. And something like this is really tearing my heart. Seeing her sad because of me is terrible and all the joy caused by my more and more developing female "self" is only short-lived. I think that her reaction is mostly because she understands my condition and therefore she is not able to be angry. And I believe that she is torn between her love to me and her needs. She keeps telling me: "It would be hard with you, but it would be even harder without."
But right now, I am stuck - she is sad even when I want to come out to other people and I believe that just mentioning HRT would mean the end of our relationship...
But I don't want to make any important steps without her knowing.It is always difficult for both partners involved.
Poly