[Mindy2017]

Only thing that can be said is chin up.  We share the same cruise ship and I'v e finally raised the white flag.  I tried the macho thing, many different drugs, tobacco, alcohol, workaholic you name it.  I stopped it all (except the alcohol- but I will) and nothing suppressed or erased the fact of I am what I am.  I have two great children, I pray they remain in my life, my wife and I have an agreement for separation and I hope she doesn't entirely float away, but I realize after everything its a do or die situation for me.  Ive been on the forum for a good while, and while swimming around in denial I have learned much from all and respect each and everyones goals and desires.  As for me, where I live they just opened and informed consent clinic.  I called Thursday to request an appointment for getting my prescription for HRT.  In my email I shared I have been DIY, am certainly I have GID and that I intend to start a complete transition. They called yesterday and said they would love to see me.  I woke up this morning the happiest I can recall in a long time.  Dont get me wrong, I take great joy in many things, its just Ive never found happiness in me.  So as for coming out, nice to meet you all... my name is Mindy.  Mayko was a screen name.  Mindy is a person no longer denied.