26-10-2017, 06:18 PM
It is, for me, a titillating notion to entertain, but one which I don't wish to act upon. Thus, I presume it is a fetish.
The decisive realization in my case is how utterly unappealing I find it to juxtapose male form and face with breasts. The ENTIRE beautiful female form is what calls to me, to the extent that I would wish to embody it. Breasts would be easy, compared to effecting a complete metamorphosis.
I am male, and in some obscure ways I am female. Therefore, I find my own ways to perfect the expression of both. For me, it has been far more harmonious, healthy and fulfilling to develop the muscularity of an elite Crossfit woman, than to focus merely upon breasts that would otherwise be out of place. I stopped cutting my hair a year ago, and already my sister is envious. I trained as a classical ballet dancer in my teens and twenties, and I think I will enjoy going back to classes now, to re-embody the lithe functional grace of a female athlete (male ones as well, for that matter). I figured out the right way to eat and train, and now have the waist and sixpack that I had when I was a dancer and in high school.
For now, I find these things very fulfilling, motivating and health promoting. With such low body fat, I occasionally crave a shot of estrogen, which I sometimes apply in the form of topical estriol, offset with progesterone cream. Overall, I try to maintain my T levels as high as I possibly can, while shrinking not from my feminine side.
Is this a fetish? Or, is it the realization that I am both, in varying degrees, and that I am always seeking for balance?
The decisive realization in my case is how utterly unappealing I find it to juxtapose male form and face with breasts. The ENTIRE beautiful female form is what calls to me, to the extent that I would wish to embody it. Breasts would be easy, compared to effecting a complete metamorphosis.
I am male, and in some obscure ways I am female. Therefore, I find my own ways to perfect the expression of both. For me, it has been far more harmonious, healthy and fulfilling to develop the muscularity of an elite Crossfit woman, than to focus merely upon breasts that would otherwise be out of place. I stopped cutting my hair a year ago, and already my sister is envious. I trained as a classical ballet dancer in my teens and twenties, and I think I will enjoy going back to classes now, to re-embody the lithe functional grace of a female athlete (male ones as well, for that matter). I figured out the right way to eat and train, and now have the waist and sixpack that I had when I was a dancer and in high school.
For now, I find these things very fulfilling, motivating and health promoting. With such low body fat, I occasionally crave a shot of estrogen, which I sometimes apply in the form of topical estriol, offset with progesterone cream. Overall, I try to maintain my T levels as high as I possibly can, while shrinking not from my feminine side.
Is this a fetish? Or, is it the realization that I am both, in varying degrees, and that I am always seeking for balance?