[PaulaJ]

what woman Wouldn`t get excited about finaly having the right parts in the right places? despite the Patriarchal beleif, Women are sexual creatures too! and to finally be rid of this...`Thing` that totally shouldn`t be there but is, like a tumourous deformity and have the parts that our brians Expect to be there, and are wired and mapped in for, IS kind of exciting, who Wouldn`t want to be normal  and be able to enjoy sex for the first time?

And no, in my instance I didn`t try NBE for any sexual reasons, I did it in the hope of feeling MENTALLY right, it was Never about boobs or sex or the body for me, I`d tried everything else from drink and drugs and love and self-help books etc... so why not! can`t hurt to try if everything else has failed, and I knew it was quite safe to do for 3 months.

The fact my brain was like "Yay!!! you Finally figured it out!" is purely down to the roulette game that is NBE

I am turned on by the idea of me being a woman, but it's mainly I'm turned on by the idea of being attractive. I went through a bodybuilding phase and I thought that would be enough, but I was never quite able to get to the point where I'd turn heads walking on the beach.

Part of why I chose NBE rather than HRT is that I don't want anti-androgens and I actually do want to keep my muscles. I'd ideally have the body of an athletic woman, like a WWE diva. Something like that actually is more achievable than looking like some huge male pro wrestler or bodybuilder anyway.

I could possible get the right balance with HRT as well, though it seems like when dealing with doctors, they have their own idea on what's right. I think I just need a little more estrogen and slightly less testosterone than what my body naturally makes. I don't even take as many herbs as most people on here do.

If I can get my weight down, I think I actually could turn some heads at the beach next summer. That's all I really want.