[bathtub-alchemist]

For those who have gone far in their journey and changed their general male body to be more femine - was there a time where you recognized  that you had made enough progress that there was no revering or going back to your former (male) self .  Not saying you would have wanted to go back , I'm just interested if you knew and recognized you were at that point in development, how you felt at that recognition moment and, how you felt knowing there was no going back?

The first no turning back was the day I decided to transition...I committed to either transition or die, and within 30 days I crossed the continental united states and started to take estrogenic agents

Two years into feminizing therapy was when I physically realized there was no turning back, and it was a bit sad.  Before that I could slum it and just go out as a boy if I didn't feel well....after two years if I tried to slum it as a boy I just looked like a confused lesbian with a lunch lady mustache.

Last year I realized I could turn back, and I did.  I needed a job before my second child was born, so I did research on what transmen do.  I bound my tits, deepended my voice, and grew out a beard (the last place that laser hasn't been able to remove hair).  I still came across as a fruitcake, but my attitude and physique prevented troubles.  I went and did oil field work for three months, then dropped out and went back to living as a woman.  To this day I ocassionally crossdress as a boy for S&G's