[Dianna1395]

Wanabe,
I hope I won't sound condescending with this; I don't mean to.

Your health has to be repaired first.
As part of that, mental health must be addressed, per your other thread.  ;-)

Part of that, if possible, would be counseling ("to deal with the effects of Lyme...") and group "support" meetings.

With any luck, you'll get healthier, and build a network, at the same time.
And that network will get you to clubs, online haunts, message boards...  You get the idea.

BUT, here's the best thing: Maybe! YOU could be the CHASED. Maybe someone wants to help remake you, and maybe you want to be remade.
Sounds like fantasy, I'm sure, but i'm actually talking to someone, out of nowhere, who may fall into that role with me... 

I don't know how to make things START, let alone work, but - I think you can agree, current state of mind isn't working, right? So change your mind! :-)
And the rest can probably happen, given time, luck, and showing up every day.

A thought, if possible - might be impossible given your health right now .
Look for yoga classes. Meet women that way, women talk - be one of the girls that way. Maybe they can help you find a boy, girl, or many, friends.  ;-)
Seems low-risk, low-cost, high return, to me.

-Dianna