[Nightshade]

Wanabe,
I hope I won't sound condescending with this; I don't mean to.

Your health has to be repaired first.
As part of that, mental health must be addressed, per your other thread.  ;-)

Yeah. I know you're right. I was just curious as it's been 18 years since I've dated anyone. I am seeing a therapist now which is pretty good so far and my doctor is better than all my previous ones. The thing is, my health might never get better and I'm almost 40. Maybe I'm having a midlife crisis  
According to this study, the average life expectancy of chronic illness sufferers is 17 years below the national average so I don't know how much time I have left

The findings suggest patients in this sample are at a significantly increased risk of earlier all-cause (M = 55.9 years) and cardiovascular-related (M = 58.8 years) mortality, and they had a directionally lower mean age of death for suicide (M = 41.3 years) and cancer (M =66.3 years) compared to the overall U.S. population [M = 73.5 (all-cause), 77.7 (cardiovascular), 47.4 (suicide), and 71.1 (cancer) years of age].

And yoga is a good idea. I've tried to get into a routine of doing it, but I'm kind of disorganized and haven't really settled into it. I saw you recommending yoga to someone who was worried about DVT so maybe that can motivate me. I don't really care that much about dying, but that sounds like a not fun way to go out.