[Nightshade]

The first no turning back was the day I decided to transition...I committed to either transition or die

^This.
I wouldn't necessarily encourage this attitude in the same way that I wouldn't encourage drug use (including alcohol and weed), but approaching the big 4-0 I'm changing my outlook on life. I have some major obstacles right now so I don't know if there will be a happy ending or if it will be me as a girl or not, but then no one really knows how their life is going to turn out.
On that topic, I read a very long and somewhat confusing article (read at your own risk ), but it had a very poignant conclusion.

This is a story, not so much of disobedience as of non-obedience. The master is not rebelled against, so much as not believed in. Those who have set themselves up as potential masters of one’s life story are no longer invested with that power. They are a material force to contend with, but otherwise a matter of supreme indifference. Not every decision taken on the road to being trans has to be assumed to be well-taken. Not everyone who considers transitioning would be wise to go through with it, at least without analysing the desire. Not every trans story has to have a happy-ever-after (and, when you think about it, no story worth reading does). Many stories go on needing to be re-written; the first edit is never our own, but it doesn’t have to be the final edit either, because there need never be a final edit. And at the heart of this experience there remains a mystery, something indeed as yet “beyond language”. Trans is not a straightforward answer to a well-defined question.