05-11-2010, 06:21 PM
Hi Kerensa,
I'll start by saying that I haven't ever sought professional mental help. However, I do understand the conflict between, as you put it, what you want and what you feel you should be doing.
Probably nobody else can really help you with that conflict, IMO. The only one who may be able to is your wife, so, does she know about the feminine side of you, and if she does, is she supportive or antagonistic?
If she is with you, then with her support you should be able to work your way through the morass together. If she is against, then you have a much more difficult minefield to work through, but again, only you can decide on your priorities for your life.
As a suggestion ( and nothing more), I have no idea how old your family are but could you set yourself a goal of, say, when the last one is 18 or something and agree with yourself to do nothing irrevocable until then?
Just know that you aren't alone in these conflicts.
Pansy Mae
I'll start by saying that I haven't ever sought professional mental help. However, I do understand the conflict between, as you put it, what you want and what you feel you should be doing.
Probably nobody else can really help you with that conflict, IMO. The only one who may be able to is your wife, so, does she know about the feminine side of you, and if she does, is she supportive or antagonistic?
If she is with you, then with her support you should be able to work your way through the morass together. If she is against, then you have a much more difficult minefield to work through, but again, only you can decide on your priorities for your life.
As a suggestion ( and nothing more), I have no idea how old your family are but could you set yourself a goal of, say, when the last one is 18 or something and agree with yourself to do nothing irrevocable until then?
Just know that you aren't alone in these conflicts.
Pansy Mae