[AlexisM]

As it turns out, the cottonseed oil in my injection will not absorb through the fat layer. Taking this subQ will yield minimal results and a lot of wasted resources. I did a bit of research and found a tutorial for injecting into the muscle layer of the butt, and I totally chickened out. I became horrendously depressed and didn't leave my bed for 3 days straight except for bathroom. My needle fear runs that deep.
I broke down and asked the crazy lady I live with if she'd be able to help. She gladly obliged the opportunity to stab my asscheek lol. Turns out it doesn't hurt at all in that location, and I got over it finally! So now I can FINALLY expect my HRT to actually do something.

On another note, I've begun wearing makeup out full time, regardless of still presenting male. Funny how much of a confidence boost I get from doing so...

This looks like it might be helpful:

https://www.healthline.com/health/intram...-injection

Looks like they dicourage the buttocks as an injection site.