28-01-2018, 08:05 PM
Katie, I can pass glances on the street but nothing more. I've stopped obsessing about passing for the sake of my sanity:).
Of course I could go to other places. Or I could cook at home too;). But this is my hometown, I'm not gonna run or hide or even alter my habits. There's also a certain misanthropy involved: I can't let the babbling sheep instill their fear and conformity in me...
And no, it's not a real danger zone. Czechs are xenophobic but also indolent and uncaring. As the old adage goes: Sticks and stones................
In fact, I'd rarely felt less as a "guy in drag" than I did at that moment, but you're right about the self-talk. This kind of self-deprecation and irony doesn't serve me anymore.
Jenn, believe it or not, but I've never thought about it like that:-O. That's just hilarious: given the sheer amount of the spectators it's very likely I'm sort of a role model or even a hero for a couple of them:D. For me they were largely just a stimuli and feedback providing background. But now I feel I could start creating a healthier connection to people. Because that HRT... what a thing!
:)))
Of course I could go to other places. Or I could cook at home too;). But this is my hometown, I'm not gonna run or hide or even alter my habits. There's also a certain misanthropy involved: I can't let the babbling sheep instill their fear and conformity in me...
And no, it's not a real danger zone. Czechs are xenophobic but also indolent and uncaring. As the old adage goes: Sticks and stones................
In fact, I'd rarely felt less as a "guy in drag" than I did at that moment, but you're right about the self-talk. This kind of self-deprecation and irony doesn't serve me anymore.
Jenn, believe it or not, but I've never thought about it like that:-O. That's just hilarious: given the sheer amount of the spectators it's very likely I'm sort of a role model or even a hero for a couple of them:D. For me they were largely just a stimuli and feedback providing background. But now I feel I could start creating a healthier connection to people. Because that HRT... what a thing!
:)))