[Nightshade]

So I had an appointment with a doctor a few weeks ago. She asked a lot of questions and then the end of the appointment was taken up with her operating on a cyst on my back (I won't go into details ). I was really depressed afterwards since I now have to wait another 2 months for another appointment.

When I came back to have the wound on my back repacked I asked her about getting bloodwork since my therapist told me they usually do that before prescribing meds. She did get that done, but I wonder what would have happened if I didn't say anything. Would I have to have waited another 2 months!?

My therapist has also been out for various reasons so it's been 5-6 weeks since our last session. I'm not sure how much it was helping, but it's better than nothing. I can't really tell anyone if I'm feeling suicidal or they can hospitalize me and deny me HRT.

I've been thinking of maybe ordering some PM just because I don't know if I can make it another 2 months. I'm not sure it really did much for me physically or psychologically, but I don't know what to do. There's some new treatments for my chronic illness I'm trying, but I'm not overly optimistic.