[Happyme]

Hi Darlene
Welcome to the forum.
How much growth do you have?
Have you thought of transition or are you just having fun?
Bobbi

Hi Bobbi,

Thanks for the reply.  I will try replying again, my previous reply got lost somehow...

I wear a 38b to 40A/B bra, I don't have a soft tape for measuring so not sure of the amount of growth.  I am 6' 208lbs, 56 years old.    The longest I have been on HRT without a break is 3-4 months, but I have cycled on/off HRT many times.  I have had breast buds form and they flattened into disks with a hole in the center.  The bud discs develop more when I restart HRT.  I have been self conscious at times when taking a shower at the gym or going topless at a friends pool party when on HRT, I ended up getting in the pool so that my breasts were underwater.  When I am active on HRT my breasts project more when I am leaning forward.

I am not considering transitioning at this time, although I wouldn't rule out that possibility in the future.  For now I would like to strike a balance between my masculine and feminine side.  I do enjoy some of the calmness and pink fog when active on HRT.  Developing breasts and feminization is more than just fun for me now, I find I relate more and more to having breasts and developing female features and feminine emotions, etc.  I enjoy feeling my breasts swell on HRT, and the soreness of new growth, and how HRT affects my emotions, etc.

Starting/stopping HRT is not fun and often I feel sick for a period of time and have trouble concentrating and doing the engineering work that I do when altering my hormone levels.  I guess I tend to binge on HRT and cross dressing at this time, I am currently still very much in the closet with all of this.

Darlene

Thanks for the bio!
I guess your not married, which makes things so much easier.
Thats very interesting that your buds flatten to discs. I hadnt heard of that before.
You might want to PM Aria or read some of her threads. I think you might have some things in common and she can share her experience.
I think your feeling too self conscious about your breasts.
As you age ( I'm 69) your boobs get bigger and they sure do droop when you bend over. Thats all aging, and if you have a few extra pounds that helps boobage too.
You can get away with a lot of growth before you have to worry about WTF looks.
So do you notice any change in you engineering logic when you are on HRT?
ie the femme vs male mind?
Bobbi