21-04-2018, 06:29 PM
For me this is a beautiful question? Why beautiful? Because after almost 3 months of HRT and after several times I was outside as me I am finally beginning to grasp an idea what the life will be after several months or years of transition...
What would I do? Or rather what will I do?
I will just finally "be" and not only "wish to be". I will finally be able to live a normal life, because life being constantly stalked by the monster of dysphoria is NOT a normal life. I will finally be able to focus on other things than wondering "what if" or trying to deny or distract myself. I'll finally do all those ordinary things without that constant "white noise" of dysphoric feelings and ideas.
I will be able to just walk outside as me without feeling sad seeing all the other women around me. I will be able to just sit in a café and read or just observing people. I'll be able to go to theater in a nice dress and enjoy the evening. I'll be able to work without being constantly distracted by dysphoric thoughts.
So this is what would I do and I hope soon I will do!
E.
What would I do? Or rather what will I do?
I will just finally "be" and not only "wish to be". I will finally be able to live a normal life, because life being constantly stalked by the monster of dysphoria is NOT a normal life. I will finally be able to focus on other things than wondering "what if" or trying to deny or distract myself. I'll finally do all those ordinary things without that constant "white noise" of dysphoric feelings and ideas.
I will be able to just walk outside as me without feeling sad seeing all the other women around me. I will be able to just sit in a café and read or just observing people. I'll be able to go to theater in a nice dress and enjoy the evening. I'll be able to work without being constantly distracted by dysphoric thoughts.
So this is what would I do and I hope soon I will do!
E.