[Happyme]

Part of the issue is also that I'm unable to transition, but yeah I recognize my thinking is dysfunctional. That's why I didn't initially post about this earlier.

Well you dont have to go all the way to 'transition'
There is a lot you can do to add to your femme self.
Buy some Vee neck womens Tee shirts,
Massage your breasts, look at womens jeans versus boys.
Little things that let you know the woman in you is starting to shine out, without upsetting the home apple cart.

Bobbi