[The First Aria]

Hi Aria,
Since its that time again when you have showed us your wonderful growth, and I asked you about the 'mental part' I thought I'd re read your last thoughts.
You did such an amazing job of describing the real you last time, I'm very curious as too see if you still are holding onto what you said or if the girl is pulling you more in.

Personally I love the way all of you have gone from the 'I dont know" and " it getting narrow up here on top of the fence". and how you have jumped the fence and have stayed sane with it all.

I admire you so much, wanting to be Aria when you are you, and then hopping into dad and Granpa mode.
Thats pretty much the way i feel, but I just dont have the lure to do my hair and wear a dress all day.
I dress every night and enjoy the girl that looks back at me from the mirror, but those are special times. My normal day is up at 5:30, feed the cats, put on my scrubby dubbies and head to the garage to get dirty. Then about 5:30 I shower, mascara lipstick earrings bra and what ever dress suits my mood for the night.

I was thinking this morning about when I was working from home and was stuck inside at my computer all day.
I was always full femme, pantihose, hair done, makeup and a well thought outfit for the day.
That was so much fun and I could have fallen into that life forever. Things happen and now those are very pleasant memories. Now I cant even think about pantihose, and heels---phew.
Ok so I've stolen enough of your thread. I'll wait for your missive
Huggs
Bobbi
PS
Where is lotus these days?

Geeze Bobbi, you're making a girl blush!  Such kind thoughtful remarks and questions..   

I feel as though I do not have to worry about a fence, that if I wake up feeling female and conditions are right, I dress accordingly.  By that I mean that if kids are in school, and I am home alone I dress the way I feel.  That's about the only good thing about being Medically Retired..  If it's a day that I have no option of dressing, then of course I don't.  Other than the fact I still put on very light makeup and wear a bra most times, I still put on the outer clothing that my mind and circumstances dictate.

A lot of times, when I go to my Doctor, Voice therapy or mental therapy sessions....  I go as female to one degree or another..  I have never worked up the courage to put on either a skirt or a dress out in public....  but I have a couple of pants and blouses that are most definitely feminine.   I feel my jumping off point is when I get my Feminine voice to the place I feel it works for me, then I would/will dress in a skirt or dress.  I feel that I would be much safer and more confident then.

Right now, me and my wife are trying to learn how to deal with me being who I am..  Some good times, as well as rough moments.  But, we are still holding together most of the time.  I wish that I had to courage to "come out" to all of my family, but as of yet I do not..  That is why I treasure my therapists and doctor visits so much.  I have the safe havens I can run to, and depending on my mood, thrive in as a female.

I chat with Lotus at least 3x per week.  He has had many problems in the last 6 months.   Problems with his wife due to his transgenderism, his "Hashimoto's Disease" and just trying to deal on an everyday basis.  He still monitors both boards, he just feels he has very little to contribute till after he solves a few IRL problems.

I would love to be able to take shots showing my hips , rear and other developments.  But, they sometimes exaggerate or reduce the actual accomplishments.  When I get the angles and lighting figured out I do want to post some, cause I am happy for the most part on the progress I have made since December of 2016.