[auzifreek9]

Auzi.....  I think your body is waiting for you to either fish, or cut bait.  I had many of the same symptoms till my blood levels of E got high enough to switch my body's mode....  So, either stop, or go full force with a good doctor to feminize.  And, even if you just want boobs, you're feminizing!

Yeah, you're right Aria, I'm just waiting on my PC to come, then I'll try that alone for 2-3 weeks and see what happens, maybe balancing the hormones, maybe a little growth, whatever. Then I'm going to try PM for a little while longer.

I actually haven't been doing _any_ kind of NBE since September btw, then it was just a little PM experiment with the cream, as I thought I could I target the breasts only. Was I wrong! Applied 2x daily for 3 days to breasts, then stopped, over that time felt absolutely nothing, not a tingle. Then 3 days after that, I woke up in the middle of the night to a bad painful backache right at the base/bottom of my spine/back/hips area,  like a 6 or 7/10! I popped 2 paracetemol pk's and a 15 min hot shower to reduce pain, after that I was good enough to go back to sleep. Even now, I'm thinking, Geez yeah that did hurt, but in a kinda 'oh my funny bone / hurts so good' way! Trust me, if I described it as a 9 or 10, I'd  be screaming "OMF$#!G gotta get to the phone and call an ambulance!!" but it wasn't. 2 nights after that, same thing, only this time it was my hips!!  I could actually FEEL my hips pulsating (with blood, I guess?) and expanding wider! Same deal, 2 pk's, hot shower, sleep it off. I read _somewhere_ here that the theory is the E is actually working to change the male hips/pelvis bone to be more female. Anyway, it made me think I have too much E, so waiting for the PC. I'm actually thinking of trying both the PM & PC at the same time for a while, as Lotus said in one of her posts she believes it'd have like a 300% effect more than just E alone!! Makes sense to me, women's ovaries produce both, that's what we want too!

I do believe both PM and BO are potent in their own ways, and will defo try PM for a while, but I'm leaning more towards BO for long term changes, as I know I want to feminize as much as possible, not just breasts anymore. We don't really get the choice for partial transition do we, as _any_ method of upping our E levels means it's going to affect our male bodies overall, not just one area.
("Hey E, I only want you for breasts!" E says "%$#@ you, I'm inside your blood and I'm going everywhere!")

One last thought - I've read so much here on BO, and this might be an over-simplification of my basic understanding of both PM and
BO but here goes:
  PM: Works by introducing phyto Es into blood stream, mimicking effect of natural E, then our bodies have to balance it out, so that's      why we take AA's like SP/WP/RR, to reduce T, thereby making the PM more effective.

  BO: Works by increasing aromatase activity, which converts T into our own 'natural' E, and eventually shutting down T production,    leading to sterilty ie. max. feminization. (So Tanya Squirrel _is_ right, we really CAN have Ovo-Testes????)

So then, with BO, is it also necessary to take AA like Spearmint tea or WP, or isn't that already being done, and might put too much stress on our testes?
I sent a PM to Stevenator regarding a BO guide .pdf he linked us to from mustgrowbust.com, which it said we should also consider taking Pituitary Glandulars (and AA's too) for extra kick to BO, thoughts? Steve thinks I be an excellent candidate and respond well to BO, so that sounds exciting for me!
(Sorry for such a long post, I think I'm a bit like Lotus that way, just got sooooo many thoughts/questions running through my head!)

Auzi