[PleasantlyFascinated]

To be honest PM is really messing with my brain, although I realise this and try to block it but it's hopeless.
Have always been hetro but with my female side but not attracted to men whatsoever.
Lately when home alone in my female attire and well (embarrassing now) playing with myself, I often imagine somebody inside me which is a huge turn on, even though the thought of having a man in my bed is sort of eeeeew! Yes, I have thoughts of somebody taking my virginity down there exciting but the thought of some man doing it repulsive, men don't turn me on at all.
Before taking PM I would have never entertained the thought of having somebody f.uck me ( sorry for that but is the only way to describe it that I can think of) I don't even know if it's something I would enjoy, never had it before. So yes I understand PM is messing with my brain.
Am at the stage where I think if I met somebody like me......who has put in the effort, totally body hair free, wearing lingerie filling at least an A cup, then I would probably let her take me. ....who am I trying to kid? Would totally let her !
But all am trying to say is before PM those thoughts would have been outrageous, am hoping and praying that PM doesn't rewire me further into letting some hairy gay man into my bed just to know how it feels and how it makes me feel.           Please not!!!I
PM is screwing with me, am having indecent thoughts that I wish would go away.