22-02-2020, 12:47 AM
Never too late to change.
I had a similar childhood, grew up as a girl, was always mistaken as a girl and having a name like Drew and wearing my elder sisters hand down clothes maybe had something to do with that. Dad wasn't impressed to put it lightly but mum was boss. Found me a private boarding school in England that would accept a very, very young boy with long hair. We lived at that time about 3 hours drive to the nearest English speaking school. It was only after puberty that people realised something wasn't quite right with me and boys stopped asking my sister "what's your sister's name" So I can relate to having a somewhat confusing childhood, well wasn't confusing at all until puberty kicked in.
Can also relate with the buying female clothes and toys, terrified of being caught then purging everything only to start all over again after a while.
I suspect most people here have purged more than once.
Am sure you will get to where you feel comfortable eventually but sounds like you are making a start. Personally I now wish I had found my path 20 years ago, but the best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is today.
I had a similar childhood, grew up as a girl, was always mistaken as a girl and having a name like Drew and wearing my elder sisters hand down clothes maybe had something to do with that. Dad wasn't impressed to put it lightly but mum was boss. Found me a private boarding school in England that would accept a very, very young boy with long hair. We lived at that time about 3 hours drive to the nearest English speaking school. It was only after puberty that people realised something wasn't quite right with me and boys stopped asking my sister "what's your sister's name" So I can relate to having a somewhat confusing childhood, well wasn't confusing at all until puberty kicked in.
Can also relate with the buying female clothes and toys, terrified of being caught then purging everything only to start all over again after a while.
I suspect most people here have purged more than once.
Am sure you will get to where you feel comfortable eventually but sounds like you are making a start. Personally I now wish I had found my path 20 years ago, but the best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is today.