(04-11-2019, 05:41 PM)dawn Wrote: Males staying males is a tough line to walk when there's two perky female breasts on your chest and your body is full of female hormones. I supposed there's someone out there who can maintain the manly man line with perky boobs and estrogen running through his veins, but I consider him a rarity. I think bra discussions are unavoidable when you have breasts to support. And with all that estrogen flowing through the veins, girly discussions are inevitable. Like it or not, if you're growing boobs intentionally, there's some underlying level of transsexualism that must acknowledged. Manly-manly alpha male men do not want boobs.
Don't let the username fool you. I am a male staying male. When I first signed up I wasn't sure. This was because, at the time, I was obsessed with wanting to be female. This obsession would come and go all of my life. my wife was aware of it prior to us being married. As the cycles progressed eventually I decided it was cheaper to wear panties all the time, even when I wasn't feeling it. As I got older the cycles of wanting to be female lasted longer and longer until it was virtually all the time.
It wasn't until I started taking herbs to grow my breasts (and gained a little too much weight) that I was able to start growing breasts and realize that during this time my obsession regressed. I eventually concluded that high testosterone is what caused the cycles to begin with. After some time to read and reflect I chose to go to Planned Parenthood (PP) and start Estradiol (E). Shortly after starting E my brain went back to what I would consider normal. It is such a relief not to be obsessed all of the time and just be me. To begin with I was on spironolactone as an anti-androgen, but I didn't like the side effects so I stopped it after a month or two and just used E.
I have been on E for about three years, when due to circumstances within my control I came off E. There was some question about my thyroid and I had to see a doc prior to my next HRT appointment. I set up a physical with a new doc. I had not been to a doc for over a decade and at 61 I thought it was time. Stopped E in Dec 2019, had a physical in March 2020 (first date available). Everything was fine and my testosterone was up to 720, which for a 61 year old guy is up there. A month later the obsession returned. I set up an appointment (mid June) with PP and will be getting my subscription renewed. In the mean time I still had some E on the shelf so last Monday I started taking E again, 6mg a day, which should last me to mid July when hopefully my prescription for 8mg of E a day will be filled. I have also ordered Endogest 200 (Progesterone) which I'll take anally (to bypass the liver) at bedtime to hopefully help fill out my breasts. I'll let you all know if adding progesterone to the mix changes things.
The bottom line is I can think clear and feel like a normal man as long as I'm on E keeping my testosterone suppressed. I have no desire to talk about bras or any other girly discussions So I guess I am one of your rarities because things function best having perky boobs and estrogen running through my veins.