Thanks Andy, this couple were on a day time talk show a month or so back.I thought at the time, blimey this is well strange, he is the first person in the uk ever to change back after having a sex change, did make me realise however, what a lucky escape i had many years ago when i was probably just a year away from surgery. Trouble is with people like me their is no middle ground, your either happy being male or your TS and there is just too many people around ready to label you. When you state your not TS then there are people around who say "oh your in denial and afraid of losing all your family and friends" which is total rubbish, if my wife and i was to finish today then the only way i would change would be to get a boob job in the far east somewhere and maybe dress a bit more girly on more of a daily basis, but i would fall well short of ever changing sex.
Around the time of putting this thread on here i took the cogiati test again to see if it came out with the same results which it did andro, then like a huge ball of light something suddenly dawned on me, now i know most transgen folk will not give the cogiati test the time of day, however if that test works on how you think about situations in general, then that would suggest that part of my brain acts in a way more relevant to that of a female in certain incidences, also it suddenly struck me why me and my wife are so alike, the things we do and say and our tastes in so many things are also the same.
All along i have been looking for a reason as to why i am the way i am and all this time i have been carrying the reason inside me i feel, ive tried for years to take on and beat this transgen thing, but without somehow changing how my brain works i have always been destined to fail. Since my findings i have felt like a new person and the guilt i feel sometimes about wanting boobs or wearing womans clothes has totally gone, i no longer have a male and female side and all these urges to become more female is just me being me.
I dont expect anyone on here to understand as everyone is different, ive spend years trying to find someone just like me, but although coming close on occasions ive yet to come across anyone i can really relate to, still i feel ive found out what makes me tick and im so much more happier for finding out.
Around the time of putting this thread on here i took the cogiati test again to see if it came out with the same results which it did andro, then like a huge ball of light something suddenly dawned on me, now i know most transgen folk will not give the cogiati test the time of day, however if that test works on how you think about situations in general, then that would suggest that part of my brain acts in a way more relevant to that of a female in certain incidences, also it suddenly struck me why me and my wife are so alike, the things we do and say and our tastes in so many things are also the same.
All along i have been looking for a reason as to why i am the way i am and all this time i have been carrying the reason inside me i feel, ive tried for years to take on and beat this transgen thing, but without somehow changing how my brain works i have always been destined to fail. Since my findings i have felt like a new person and the guilt i feel sometimes about wanting boobs or wearing womans clothes has totally gone, i no longer have a male and female side and all these urges to become more female is just me being me.
I dont expect anyone on here to understand as everyone is different, ive spend years trying to find someone just like me, but although coming close on occasions ive yet to come across anyone i can really relate to, still i feel ive found out what makes me tick and im so much more happier for finding out.