WOW! Absolutely wow! An old thread but I decided to stalk you to try and find you and I did. Your initial post was mind blowing sounded as though you were writing about me as that's exactly how it was for me in the initial phase of this journey and for many others here I'm sure. You're a wonderful person I feel privaleged to have met, I mean that....honestly.
A sexless marriage is still a marriage I have that too but am still crazy about her, can't stop myself from having those feelings. But yes we seek release in other areas and experiment in our own femininity as being unfaithful would be inexcusable behavoir. But sadly and I regret it so very much I did become weak and submit and am so ashamed of myself for doing so. No physical contact but am prepared to die protecting her, and I would. Affection to a person doesn't always have to be physical. I left and had my own flat for over a year, but recently returned to my sexless marriage and came back home because I'm still in love. May sound crazy, but that's how it is for me.
A sexless marriage is still a marriage I have that too but am still crazy about her, can't stop myself from having those feelings. But yes we seek release in other areas and experiment in our own femininity as being unfaithful would be inexcusable behavoir. But sadly and I regret it so very much I did become weak and submit and am so ashamed of myself for doing so. No physical contact but am prepared to die protecting her, and I would. Affection to a person doesn't always have to be physical. I left and had my own flat for over a year, but recently returned to my sexless marriage and came back home because I'm still in love. May sound crazy, but that's how it is for me.