25-03-2021, 04:24 PM
I have been silently following this thread for quite a while now...
Just an interesting note about me & masculinity. I never had a role model of a man around 24/7 when I was kid, spent a lot of time with my father though and he's into a lot of 'guy stuff' which he taught to me, I'm eternally grateful he did. But he's not the macho kind, very artistic as I am too and very good at fixing and building stuff, a total outdoorsman and loves fishing and so on.... And all that he passed down and taught me to do. But he never pushed me to be super manly either. I'm also glad for that.
From an early age, I learned to dislike hyper masculine guys, the toxic kind who are way too loud and obnoxious for their own good. I was bullied badly in school and a lot of the reason was that I was just too girly and soft, too kind to everyone and nothing had prepared me for it. It took years to learn to defend myself and even that barely worked.
I overcompensated for years in many ways btw. And funnily enough, even though I don't think I've ever really hid my true self that well, many people, specially ex girlfriends have viewed me as the strong alpha male type (I'm more like a sigma personality type, look it up.) when its quite far from the truth. Although I can totally be the leader if I want to and typical alpha wannabe guys have major issues about me. They perceive me as a threat and act accordingly. I've seen this time and again, all the way through my life. Even now that I'm quite far outed myself and act way more openly fem than every before, still this happens some times. Far less than it used to though.
Then again, different kind of men seem to be very attracted quite often which is fun to say at least.
I may be the polar opposite of many of you posting on this thread. Heh, its funny, some times I mix really well with very masculine guys and other times there's a clear repulsion there.
Just an interesting note about me & masculinity. I never had a role model of a man around 24/7 when I was kid, spent a lot of time with my father though and he's into a lot of 'guy stuff' which he taught to me, I'm eternally grateful he did. But he's not the macho kind, very artistic as I am too and very good at fixing and building stuff, a total outdoorsman and loves fishing and so on.... And all that he passed down and taught me to do. But he never pushed me to be super manly either. I'm also glad for that.
From an early age, I learned to dislike hyper masculine guys, the toxic kind who are way too loud and obnoxious for their own good. I was bullied badly in school and a lot of the reason was that I was just too girly and soft, too kind to everyone and nothing had prepared me for it. It took years to learn to defend myself and even that barely worked.
I overcompensated for years in many ways btw. And funnily enough, even though I don't think I've ever really hid my true self that well, many people, specially ex girlfriends have viewed me as the strong alpha male type (I'm more like a sigma personality type, look it up.) when its quite far from the truth. Although I can totally be the leader if I want to and typical alpha wannabe guys have major issues about me. They perceive me as a threat and act accordingly. I've seen this time and again, all the way through my life. Even now that I'm quite far outed myself and act way more openly fem than every before, still this happens some times. Far less than it used to though.
Then again, different kind of men seem to be very attracted quite often which is fun to say at least.
I may be the polar opposite of many of you posting on this thread. Heh, its funny, some times I mix really well with very masculine guys and other times there's a clear repulsion there.