[thegirl1951]

Putting thoughts into words is an excellent exercise to better define what you want and how to get there.  Do not think putting your thoughts into words (a private notebook would be nice or a password locked computer notebook) into as a waste of time.   Taking pictures to track your progress is also recommended by many people on this site.  Making notes as to what NBE herbs work and what side effects you have is important, IMO. Sounds like you have a good start on what you want.  Read the background information by a user named Lotus.  Learn a little "science" behind NBE; it will greatly help you.  Do not discount your health as some herbs will have side effects. PM (and some other NBE herbs) can potentially have serious side effects like high blood pressure and DVT (which can kill you). I am not trying to scare you; just be careful. Use the search function on this site and look up DVT for more information. Everyone seems to react differently to NBE herbs, so do not become discouraged by lack of progress when you first start.