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I believe that the fear we feel about transitioning, and the repercussions it would bring, is what keeps us clinging to anything that might "disprove" we are trans. Hence, "it's just a kink" or "I'm just exploring" becomes an easy cop out from the dilema.

... I'm more and more convinced the validation, the answer, can only come from whithin.

I'm about to start too. 
Sometimes I wonder if it's because I would love to transition but i"m afraid to hurt people who I love the most, that I'm now starting.
Maybe I just want to reach a point of no return? Maybe I want to get to a situation where I don't have to make a choice but where I don't have a choice anymore?
If that makes sense....

I agree and In my own reflexion, I decided to let it being a kink as I do enjoy the journey along with the self care. I don't want it to be a chore or a duty.

As far as having to cross a bridge at some point with relatives, I'll be able the present a developed product and be just blunt about it. I do put myself in their shoes and I will never force them to have to deal with the confusing messages a transition sends.

We notice the crossdressers in the streets but the passable ones always pass under the radar.

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