[Drew]

Thank you very much Drew, I really appreciate the opportunity to discuss this topic since I have not mastered the courage to talk about it with anyone irl. I would really like to dive into this persistente desire, since as time pass it seems to remain with me.

I'm worried about disappointing my family, but, on the other side I'm worried aboutdisappoint myself too- ignoring what I feel I miss

 

Well there will be on the journey ups and downs highs and lows so not trying to be negative  but I think it's worth it. I mean I'm on a low now, I am ample enough to fill my bras but I look at women and lately am feeling insecure. That is absurd I know and those feelings and that depression will pass eventually but there may be times that you question just what you are doing or have done to yourself. However for me personally I don't know in what state I would be if I hadn't,  probably somewhere I wouldnt like. It can be difficult to go through life living up to everybody's expectations or what you may perceive as their expectations but you do need to take care of you and your needs eventually and some people may suprise you.