[Jamie-May]

You're right Sonya! That's a big part of my realization after I had my seizure a few years back. It led me to start becoming who I wanted, it led me here, and its led me to where I am now. And fortunately for me, I've started making progress in moving out as I've said in some of my posts.

I'll be living with friends rather than family soon enough. This will allow me a good bit more freedom and hopefully let me cut off ties with family by simply being away from them. At any rate living with friends will give me much more freedom. And to be honest I think most of my friends wouldn't care if they knew my secret, I just wouldn't want the risk of family finding out.

Anyway, after a few months there (or a year or two if things go bad for whatever reason with world situations and economy), I plan to move to a completely different state. Miles and miles away from my family and extended family. I won't live for them anymore since that can't bring me happiness. I've realized that completely. I won't waste my life for them. If push comes to shove they'll just have to find out who I am and either respect that or remove me from their lives.



I'm sorry to hear about your own past. I can't imagine how hard that must have been on you. My dad on the other hand is my major stressor. We all have our own trials and tribulations. Those things can shape us, maybe not in a way we wanted if we're not strong enough. I hope you found yourself stronger after what you've went through though. That even through your misfortunes, you were able to become a better person that you can love and respect more than ever.

As always I wish you the best going ahead too. Another trial is ahead of you... Try to stay strong though! Sorry if I've maybe derailed this thread or brought too much attention to myself. This thread is about you. I won't distract from that anymore if I can help it. I'm glad to hear that you might have found something worthwhile in all of my terrible (and terribly long) prose~

Happy New Year!