[aroundthebend]

After years of lurking here and the trying various programs with limited success I hit upon a method that really works and finally I have some nice a-cups that look like real breasts while still presenting as male and keeping my sexual drive.

So yippee right? Well yes and no...I love having breasts, I think they look and feel great, but it's the middle of summer and to hide them I need to put on a tight sports bra or at the very least use pasties to hide my nipples. These things make it sweaty and uncomfortable during this steaming hot summer. Even worse...In 2 weeks I'm going to visit my sister and a bunch of friends at a lake side house rental and I know I'm really going to want to go swimming in the lake. If I stop everything right now my breasts will probably shrink enough to avoid questions/looks but then I have to start it up all over again and it will take several weeks to get them back again.

I started thinking about this today and getting depressed. I'm wondering what the point is of having breasts if I feel the need to hide them so much? I want to be whom I am with no apologies but I don't know if I have the inner strength to deal with the looks and judgement every time I need to go to the grocery store.  

I'm at a serious crossroad here...I either need to come to terms with this or quit.

Any thoughts? Advice?