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Just to note out something on levels, what we get is not tied to the dose as in some hard coded fact, also recommendations with levels seems to be BS, WPATH in particular is just silly. But 480 pg/ml is high. My E came as 517 pg/ml last time and my doctor (she's trans woman also) didn't say a thing about it, she said its perfectly fine, meaning not too much.

I can't tell what your personal perfect balance is, but my labs have been 345 and then 517 pg/ml and on both, I've felt fine and had nice body changes. Seems that my mental state is the first indicator about if its good or not. Trying higher messed up my emotional state, I was told I behave as if I'm pregnant, going lower than where I'm now (0.08ml/3.2mg of 40mg/ml EV every 3.5 days) causes my dysphoria to flare up. Also body changes totally slow down a to a crawl on higher levels.

You could try to lower your dose so your levels come out around 300-350 pg/ml? That might work for you better? Are you on EEn as you say you're injecting every ten days? Higher than expected levels can be caused by your metabolism and/or E sensitivity, Lotus is more knowledgeable on the exact science on how this works. I say drop your dose a bit a see how you feel and get labs booked after a month or so?

That... might be a part of it.
Before talking about the dosages, it's the first time checking my measurements in a while... and I haven't made any progress in the last 8 months. No growth at all. The half inch I put on in the last few months was solely from me putting ten pounds on and is entirely evaporated now I've lost a bit of weight. It's incredibly frustrating and this is the first time I've ever truly had a dysphoria induced panic attack. I used to think of myself as not being that dysphoric, but I think this is starting to show I do have strong feelings I haven't come to grips with yet.

The dosages might make a bit of sense for the stalling. I recently changed from 0.175ml/7mg every 10 days, to 0.11ml/4.4mg every 7 days. Both are 40mg/ml EEn. I got my blood test when I was on the 7mg dose, and that had peaks of 350pg/ml of E2, and troughs of 250. Current dose has peaks of 220, and troughs of 150. I haven't tested my blood on this new dose, but, I imagine it'd be overall be lower. I might be in the correct range right now. My mood is a tiny bit off, but my chest feels sore. If I had to guess, I might be a bit low on estrogen? I have felt snippier than usual lately though. It has only been 2 weeks since I feel the DHT left my system, so maybe I need to settle in. I don't know, maybe I'll try 0.01ml more some time. 
It's worth noting I did go testosterone dominant for a month or so, and I've only recently switched back over to estrogen dominant now I'm on Cypro again. 6.25mg a day seems to be enough to keep testosterone and DHT at bay.
I have also had the first real bout of chest soreness I've had since my last growth spurt in the last two weeks as well, but since I've been eating less and losing weight, it doesn't seem to have made a difference. It's situated right up under my nipple, it doesn't extend all the way to the base of the breast though.
I've been slacking on the Noogle and I will try to do more of it, just I'm frustrated there wasn't more progress on all these supplements and time.

I'll keep on these doses for a bit and stick to the supplements for at least a month before I start thinking something is truly off. And I'll try another blood test in the coming weeks.


Full disclaimer, personal dissatisfaction is one of the reasons I'm not at all that active around here, and when I am, I don't really exchange pleasantries. Hearing the stories of others who continue to make loads of progress while I've fought as hard for as I have for five years now to still end up making far less progress is just really demotivating and harmful to my mental state. I feel I need to take several month long breaks to focus on my journey personally to avoid comparing myself to others and beating myself up for not doing better. To be clear I'm not mad at anyone for sharing stories, it's just why I'm a bit... distant.