[Kay Lady]

I have always been doing self help with some periods of therapy mixed in. A few years ago, I was working on self acceptance. There are parts of myself that I have disliked all my life. As I was re-examining some of these, I remembered as a child wanting to be a girl. I would look at catalogs, find women's lingerie and wish that I could wear & wishing that I looked like those ladies. I used have dreams while I slept that I was a girl. I never told anyone as I thought there was something wrong with me. So I buried it far down. I tried a little cross dressing here and there as I grew up, but always felt shame and would throw away the clothes. 

Well, back to working on acceptance, I pondered the those thoughts and times. And now as a mature man, I will see a woman in a store and wish that I had hair like hers or notice her nice makeup. So I stopped denying it and it felt very liberating to admit that I am trans. My transition is in slow motion. I admire the young people who know, can talk about it and seek medical help. For myself, better late than never.