[Vana_B]

I'm with you, though with me it's whether or not to start. I dropped 50 pounds over the last 2 years and spent a lot of time in the gym. My body is actually very muscular, especially for my age (63). All to prep for NBE if I decided to go that route. The problem now is I like this version of me. My wife Really, Really likes it. I'm on no meds or supplements of any kind. Have no medical issues and can still run with the big dogs in the gym. I don't even need any help getting and maintaining erections. 

Do I give that up? At my age do I take the chance? Do I make the change? No matter what I do it seems that NBE will make changes to my body. As I mentioned in my intro, for the first time in memory I am uncertain what I want. 

That said, I'm going to go very, very slow. I will not take any NBE substances or actions unless and until I am absolutely CERTAIN. This does not seem to be a road to take without that certainty. I'm not implying you have the same thoughts as I have, just the way I'm approaching what is at heart a very serious decision. 

I wish you the very best of luck no matter how you decide to proceed. I will tell you that I'm at least mostly sure I will not begin an NBE program. I like my life as it is. More than I realized as it happens. It has been the wise words of so many contributors here that have steered me this direction. NBE isn't for everyone, and no one knows that better than those who are already well down that path. I will be forever grateful to all of them for that. 

Take care and give yourself time to process and contemplate. There will be a tomorrow.

Most of what I have done up to now has been more of "experimenting" and not fully committed to going down the NBE path.  What I have done so far has increased my desire to develop my breasts and have softer feminine curves,  yet not willing to give up being a "man" in many aspects.  I spend alot of time in the gym, but now more yoga/endurance training than pure strength.   I tend to be very bodily aware and stop as soon as I feel anything is not quite normal, such as loss of erection quality, or loss health or energy.   

It does seem each time I quit,  I  come back with a desire to take it just one step further.   Before I quit the last time,  I felt my nipples itching and lumps starting to form.    My areolas were getting darker and wider, nipples were always erect poking out through every shirt.    I was to the point I felt if I continued, wearing a bra would no longer be a kink, but a necessity. This combine with lack of energy and libido I had to stop and re-evaluate what I was doing.   This time I have started wearing a a sports bra at times under my clothes in public, to work, and even to the gym just to "mentally prepare" myself to keep going when I do start budding.  My plan is to reduce the herbs to topical use only, but keep up with the pumping and massage if I have performance issues.
 
For me, it is all about trying to balance my desires to be more feminine and not impact my health or overall "life as a man".  As I get more experience experimenting with NBE, I see the balance point slowly drifting towards allowing myself to be more feminine.