08-02-2023, 05:13 AM
Yeah, why don't you take a break. Don't pressure yourself. I bet 90% of the members on this site experience the same ambivalence and struggle with the same emotions.
I know I have. Sometimes I liken myself to Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, two completely different iterations of myself. The cause of this is a complete mystery to me.
You have enough experience to know that in a day, you could feel completely different. It could be a day or a week... or two... but you know you will go back.
Don't torture yourself over this. It is a mysterious process. We are unique and special people. Let yourself accept these two sides of you and allow them space.
I know I have. Sometimes I liken myself to Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, two completely different iterations of myself. The cause of this is a complete mystery to me.
You have enough experience to know that in a day, you could feel completely different. It could be a day or a week... or two... but you know you will go back.
Don't torture yourself over this. It is a mysterious process. We are unique and special people. Let yourself accept these two sides of you and allow them space.