[Heaven's Night]

DiDi... Thanks for all of your input. 

I think one thing can be said for sure... BO has RANDOM consequences.

I guess it's like a box of chocolates but I didn't want to say that! 

Its really strange how it appears to be totally random, but I'm quite sure there's either hormonal or genetic trait that makes it work. But the magical point of no return, permanent aromatase boost? Permanent cell "reprogramming?" Some scream no evidence, but I've read enough anecdotes on this to know that something's up with this. Too many tell of the same thing. I keep wondering, have I got into that point as I've been on it for more than a year? Most of that time doing 400-950mg a day, right now I've been on 750mg a day for many months.

Also another strange thing is that there doesn't seem to be much of a middle ground with it, those who benefit seem to often benefit greatly, while others get nothing at all. I haven't read much of "I got some but not much" type of stories about it.

Btw the only one besides myself who I personally know to have had exactly same kind of response that I have had is Melissa, Mel87 here on BN. She's been taking time off of online stuff lately and we haven't talked much in a week or so. She's doing a bit better already. Anyway, her experience is almost perfectly mirroring mine. Her breast development took a huge jump almost right after starting and she felt BO also somehow balancing her hormones in a way that conventional HRT seems to be incapable of doing. That's strange because when I started, it was almost like when I first started HRT. Clarity of mind and just feeling "right" in a way that's difficult to determine. But what exactly makes it tick is anybody's best guess. All I know is that it works like magic to those who benefit from it.

The thing about libido and dressing up, I experienced that too. My T driven (disgusting and uncontrollable) sexdrive was totally killed off to an extent by PM, later almost totally by HRT. I would guess bovine ovary might have done the same had I started it before HRT. Not surprisingly, dressing up became just an everyday thing for me once it was obvious that I'm transitioning and changing my hormonal make up changed my entire thinking about it. But it was never sexual, more of euphoria and thrill of being able to live the real me somehow. But this effect seems to happen to quite many the moment their hormone balance gets radically altered.