@Jennifer, 
Forums like these are an interesting place to meet people from all over the world but not a place to live. I have only become active on the forum for the past year and have witnessed several squabbles one resulting in people being banned, for good reason, blatantly being disrespectful and downright mean. But generally most people are just looking for good information and trying to figure out where they want to be internally and externally in appearance. I think stories such as yours has helped some along their journey. So thanks for sharing and it will be sad to see you leave but your reasoning is understandable. 

Once I achieve my goal I will probably be on here less also. Mine is only a journey of feminization and not transition, but from very little I always remember feeling more feminine and comfortable around girls than men. 

Take care