05-08-2023, 08:01 PM
Hey everyone.
I think I'm right there with all of you guys. I haven't been to any formal counseling or seen any doctors or whatnot I've just done a lot of my own research and watching so-called experts on YouTube and what they talk about on the subject of transgenderism and what they look for in people they think are potential candidates etc.
I think I am just as confused as anyone else honestly by no means do I believe I have dysmorphia about my body I don't hate it. I think I've actually come a very long way with my male body in terms of what I was able to do with it physically and the amount of muscle I have been able to put on my frame and whatnot. But I always come back to seeing women and it's not that I get aroused from seeing them or anything like that it's more along the lines of I wonder what it would be like to be her for a day or can I achieve and make my body more feminine like hers while keeping as much fit in tone muscle as I can. Which that would be a whole another problem with transitioning being on female hormones and possibly the smallest dose of male hormones just to keep the muscle that I have taken so many years of my life to achieve. But like I said there are days where I don't think about it at all maybe even weeks or months but I always end up coming back to thinking and wondering and wanting to experience life as a woman all aspects obviously not just the fun sexual part of it but all of it. And speaking of the sexual part when I'm playing by myself I usually imagine myself as a woman and doing the things that a woman would do to herself versus what a typical male would do.
So therein lies the question who is to say what is exactly normal because I say all the time why can't I just be like every other normal guy that doesn't have these thoughts but I'm starting to believe that everything is normal and not normal all at the same time if that makes sense. I'm sure a good majority of the population all has these thoughts and feelings it was not just a select few of us that feel like we're outsiders or weird because we have these thoughts and feelings.
I think I'm right there with all of you guys. I haven't been to any formal counseling or seen any doctors or whatnot I've just done a lot of my own research and watching so-called experts on YouTube and what they talk about on the subject of transgenderism and what they look for in people they think are potential candidates etc.
I think I am just as confused as anyone else honestly by no means do I believe I have dysmorphia about my body I don't hate it. I think I've actually come a very long way with my male body in terms of what I was able to do with it physically and the amount of muscle I have been able to put on my frame and whatnot. But I always come back to seeing women and it's not that I get aroused from seeing them or anything like that it's more along the lines of I wonder what it would be like to be her for a day or can I achieve and make my body more feminine like hers while keeping as much fit in tone muscle as I can. Which that would be a whole another problem with transitioning being on female hormones and possibly the smallest dose of male hormones just to keep the muscle that I have taken so many years of my life to achieve. But like I said there are days where I don't think about it at all maybe even weeks or months but I always end up coming back to thinking and wondering and wanting to experience life as a woman all aspects obviously not just the fun sexual part of it but all of it. And speaking of the sexual part when I'm playing by myself I usually imagine myself as a woman and doing the things that a woman would do to herself versus what a typical male would do.
So therein lies the question who is to say what is exactly normal because I say all the time why can't I just be like every other normal guy that doesn't have these thoughts but I'm starting to believe that everything is normal and not normal all at the same time if that makes sense. I'm sure a good majority of the population all has these thoughts and feelings it was not just a select few of us that feel like we're outsiders or weird because we have these thoughts and feelings.