Hi everyone,
I’m back again (sooner than expected) with a 12 week update. This is the conclusion of my first 90 days (more or less) of my road to boobs.
You can see what I took and in what quantities in the attachments below as well as my measurements and a couple photos.
I ended up taking a total of two weeks off (13 days) between the previous 7 days of PM and this last round which ran 4 days of FG and 10 days of PM. I had planned to start the next round tomorrow but restarted today on PM at 1500mg per day and PM topical 2x day.
I know the photos don’t show it very well, but I can definitely feel the progress. It’s amazing how much the internal changes are felt before they are seen.
I’m beginning another 12 week regimen tomorrow. The plan is to use only PM for the 1st 6 weeks and then depending on my progress, to start topical progesterone and DHEA for the 2nd 6 weeks. Of course, it’s subject to change, depending on what my body is telling me.
The hope is that at the end of this 2nd 12 week period, I’ll more or less be where I want to be for a while, ie A cups. The addition of progesterone will also hopefully promote the shape I want.
I’ve definitely noticed that there is circular, dense tissue under my nipples now. So I’m expecting further development aka budding to occur over the next few weeks.
I’ve also noticed that for me the ideal dose for PM is 1500mg per day divided into three 500mg capsules morning, noon, and night. 1000mg didn’t produce much development and 2000mg felt like a little too much and gave me leg cramps. I also find that topical application of PM twice a day accelerates growth. In fact, I stopped the topical part-way through the last round because the changes were accelerating more than I wanted.
I’d like to describe how I’m feeling overall about growing breasts as a heretofore cisgender gay man. I’ve been deep diving into transgender thought and experience on reddit. The politics of it all is byzantine in its complexity. The acronyms to describe all the variations are almost impenetrable to me. The disagreements often come across as ideological but ultimately are mostly semantic.
If it weren’t such an offensive stereotype, you might think the people in those subreddits were suffering from the runaway emotions of “that time of the month.”
No one seems to think that gender lies on a spectrum and can be experienced differently depending on both physiological and sociological circumstances, not to mention time of life. People change. Society changes and makes space (and can take away space) for self expression. The loudest voices are those staking out positions and defending them to the death.
This is what I have come away with so far in relation to myself and why I am doing this. There are several ways to experience transgender feelings and thoughts. One is dysphoria and another is euphoria. I seem to fall into the latter camp of experiencing gender euphoria with regard to breasts. It’s also sexually arousing and subversive.
When I’m taking PM and feeling the changes in my body and seeing small breasts begin to take shape, I have a sense of joy and well-being and of being naughty. It’s not in response to hating anything about my body. It’s more about experiencing it in a new way. This is not about becoming my true self but exploring my latent self. I’m not running away from my maleness but rather searching for my femaleness.
Estrogen therapy for males (NBE or HRT) doesn’t seem like a zero sum game to me. The male self and the female self can co-exist, overlap, and even encourage one another. This is what I understand by the indigenous term “two spirit” to mean. Gender like orientation is on a spectrum. One can move back and forth, depending on time of life, time of year, time of day, etc. Or so it seems if you are inclined that way. I know others are more fixed in their direction and identity. I know I am in regards to orientation.
Thanks for following. My next update will be in 6 weeks instead of 4. See you then!
I’m back again (sooner than expected) with a 12 week update. This is the conclusion of my first 90 days (more or less) of my road to boobs.
You can see what I took and in what quantities in the attachments below as well as my measurements and a couple photos.
I ended up taking a total of two weeks off (13 days) between the previous 7 days of PM and this last round which ran 4 days of FG and 10 days of PM. I had planned to start the next round tomorrow but restarted today on PM at 1500mg per day and PM topical 2x day.
I know the photos don’t show it very well, but I can definitely feel the progress. It’s amazing how much the internal changes are felt before they are seen.
I’m beginning another 12 week regimen tomorrow. The plan is to use only PM for the 1st 6 weeks and then depending on my progress, to start topical progesterone and DHEA for the 2nd 6 weeks. Of course, it’s subject to change, depending on what my body is telling me.
The hope is that at the end of this 2nd 12 week period, I’ll more or less be where I want to be for a while, ie A cups. The addition of progesterone will also hopefully promote the shape I want.
I’ve definitely noticed that there is circular, dense tissue under my nipples now. So I’m expecting further development aka budding to occur over the next few weeks.
I’ve also noticed that for me the ideal dose for PM is 1500mg per day divided into three 500mg capsules morning, noon, and night. 1000mg didn’t produce much development and 2000mg felt like a little too much and gave me leg cramps. I also find that topical application of PM twice a day accelerates growth. In fact, I stopped the topical part-way through the last round because the changes were accelerating more than I wanted.
I’d like to describe how I’m feeling overall about growing breasts as a heretofore cisgender gay man. I’ve been deep diving into transgender thought and experience on reddit. The politics of it all is byzantine in its complexity. The acronyms to describe all the variations are almost impenetrable to me. The disagreements often come across as ideological but ultimately are mostly semantic.
If it weren’t such an offensive stereotype, you might think the people in those subreddits were suffering from the runaway emotions of “that time of the month.”
No one seems to think that gender lies on a spectrum and can be experienced differently depending on both physiological and sociological circumstances, not to mention time of life. People change. Society changes and makes space (and can take away space) for self expression. The loudest voices are those staking out positions and defending them to the death.
This is what I have come away with so far in relation to myself and why I am doing this. There are several ways to experience transgender feelings and thoughts. One is dysphoria and another is euphoria. I seem to fall into the latter camp of experiencing gender euphoria with regard to breasts. It’s also sexually arousing and subversive.
When I’m taking PM and feeling the changes in my body and seeing small breasts begin to take shape, I have a sense of joy and well-being and of being naughty. It’s not in response to hating anything about my body. It’s more about experiencing it in a new way. This is not about becoming my true self but exploring my latent self. I’m not running away from my maleness but rather searching for my femaleness.
Estrogen therapy for males (NBE or HRT) doesn’t seem like a zero sum game to me. The male self and the female self can co-exist, overlap, and even encourage one another. This is what I understand by the indigenous term “two spirit” to mean. Gender like orientation is on a spectrum. One can move back and forth, depending on time of life, time of year, time of day, etc. Or so it seems if you are inclined that way. I know others are more fixed in their direction and identity. I know I am in regards to orientation.
Thanks for following. My next update will be in 6 weeks instead of 4. See you then!