I'm not really new have been here for years under a different name 'my real name' and a different sense of being, or as some may say a volatile personality, yes I get that. I never did leave, I always look in but as I was active here I had good times where I would be supportive and had personal bad times where I would be awful to everybody. Blamed it on the E, in a way yes, it does make you go mental a bit but is controllable if you are strong enough to endure...I wasn't and I'm sorry. So very, very sorry. I saw that myself so requested myself that I was  banned, I got that not surprisingly. Anyway some long term members here already know who I am from my style of writing I'm sure, I was very,very active here but not always in a good way I'm now embarrassed to say. I'm not looking for forgiveness as I was a different person way back then and I wouldn't absolve me either but am just pleading for acceptance nothing more although that i know that is a BIG ask. There are so very few places left for people like us to receive acceptance or support, there is a time I have discovered that you finally accept who you are, how the substances you take to enhance yourself can effect your mind but you can shed the self  inflicted dilemma and finally be at peace with yourself and with others. This took me years to understand,  was fighting with myself in acceptance and denial and involuntarily taking others with me and hurting people in that process. I'm quite sensetive though so am not a blueprint for HRT. Anyway this is me, that's my face too...eeeeew. please don't judge. 
Well if I'm not welcome here even though im now serene and now capable of adult behaviour, just well...ignore. I would like to offer support and encouragement but I do know there are already lots of those already here who do, and didn't mess it up.