[Wellworn]

Being in a continual state of arousal for a couple of days has put a different perspective on things. I've probably wanked myself back to a a slightly more balanced state of mind.

During that time I also felt impelled to epilate my upper chest so I pulled out the old silk-epil and went for it. It may be the endorphin rush I got from that which started the let down off the fantasy ride I was on.

I've gone back and read more on the DVT possibility, but I think that risk is quite low for normal dosages. What started to concern me more were the reported effects of penis and testicle shrinkage. I had these side effects from Dutasteride and they definitely caused me psychological distress. Those problems resolved somewhat after stopping treatment but the thought of going back into a similar state and it potentially being a permanent thing after using sufficient PM to get the desired effect have me worried.

I've also realized the local stuff I order is a low dose compound and not straight PM powder, so it probably wouldn't achieve the desired effect anyway. There don't seem to be any good reports on here about the compound capsules.

My autogynephilia is still active but I need to rethink how I address it. I'll readily admit I'm loving my newly smooth mini boobies, it's just a shame I'm having to do it in secret. The question now is should/will I keep up the epilation? What will be the other half's reaction when she notices what I've been up to?

Probably I should just push the xdressing thing more before I get into irreversible stuff.

Will I be able to resist just popping one or two of the capsules to see if they have any effect?