[Karen Hart]

Caged,

I have also struggled with this dual-identity all my life. 

Started CD'ing at the age of 5. Started strength training at age 12. 
Both of these persisted and increased over the years.
Had desires and fantasies of transitioning. 
Should have thought more about that before I went from a 37" chest to 42" (muscle, not boobs)
Who was I? I felt like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Still do. 
It's a very frustrating dilemma. 

I cannot offer any advice because I could never figure it out for myself.
Just wanted to let you know, you are not the only one out there.
Actually, there are many of us out there.
Many of them are not body builders but they struggle with this dual identity.

Karen