08-05-2024, 12:21 AM
Just wanted to give a update.
Since being outted, things have been a bit awkward. Like there's a giant elephant in the room no one is willing to acknowledge or talk about it.
My wife has started a new position at work and it's really stressing her out. On top of that she forgets to take her thyroid meds on a reg basis. She's always irritated, tired, stressed out and you don't want to be the unlucky one that happens to be around her, bc you will be her emotional punching bag.
I try to do what I can to help, support her, consol her etc. it's getting really difficult to even want to be around her. Even all the dogs leave the room when she walks in. Lol funny but not funny lol.
Anyways all this and me being outted, any and all progress, talks or even me trying to explore that side of myself have been swept under the rug. Afterwards I have to admit I was very ashamed of myself for even having these feelings and thoughts. I've since completely stopped exploring that side of myself.
It's hard to bring up any conversation or healthy talk about me potentially being trans when she has an answer and an attitude for everything. It definitely feels like a love hate relationship right now.
I really wished I knew all about this stuff at a younger age, young enough to stop puberty, you g enough to start and live as a woman while I still have my youth to enjoy it. I am just rambling.
Anyways there is no updates. No new news. It's just stagnant, a purgatory of lets ignore this and hope it goes away or at least doesn't come up in a way that she can't ignore.
She's wants open honesty and transparency. I feel that any step I take to explore my inner woman will be met with resistance. She does not want a wife. She wants a husband. She wants a man, and not a feminine man either. So I am stuck playing the role I have had to my entire life. What's a few more years...
Since being outted, things have been a bit awkward. Like there's a giant elephant in the room no one is willing to acknowledge or talk about it.
My wife has started a new position at work and it's really stressing her out. On top of that she forgets to take her thyroid meds on a reg basis. She's always irritated, tired, stressed out and you don't want to be the unlucky one that happens to be around her, bc you will be her emotional punching bag.
I try to do what I can to help, support her, consol her etc. it's getting really difficult to even want to be around her. Even all the dogs leave the room when she walks in. Lol funny but not funny lol.
Anyways all this and me being outted, any and all progress, talks or even me trying to explore that side of myself have been swept under the rug. Afterwards I have to admit I was very ashamed of myself for even having these feelings and thoughts. I've since completely stopped exploring that side of myself.
It's hard to bring up any conversation or healthy talk about me potentially being trans when she has an answer and an attitude for everything. It definitely feels like a love hate relationship right now.
I really wished I knew all about this stuff at a younger age, young enough to stop puberty, you g enough to start and live as a woman while I still have my youth to enjoy it. I am just rambling.
Anyways there is no updates. No new news. It's just stagnant, a purgatory of lets ignore this and hope it goes away or at least doesn't come up in a way that she can't ignore.
She's wants open honesty and transparency. I feel that any step I take to explore my inner woman will be met with resistance. She does not want a wife. She wants a husband. She wants a man, and not a feminine man either. So I am stuck playing the role I have had to my entire life. What's a few more years...