[Menina]

Thank you very much for taking the time to answer this question. However, the questions you have are quite complex and more difficult to answer than they seem. I have worn women's clothing since I was a child, and until I reached adulthood, I always hid it from my family because it was unacceptable in a Christian home. To free myself from this situation, which I thought was a curse, I got married, because I thought that if I had an active sex life, it would disappear. The marriage lasted ten years, during which I always wore my ex-wife's clothes when she was not around. After the divorce and with children, I decided to start a new life. I had girlfriends with whom I enjoyed being a man, until I decided to change completely and wear women's clothing in my daily life. It was gradual, about three years until I got to where I am today, completely assumed as a woman, I only wear dresses, I wear a bra with padding, I invested in the gym to shape my feminine body and also in herbs. This current state has lasted about a year. I even changed my social name. I decided to undergo bioidentical hormone therapy (I would like to know if I should use it every day or take a week off to imitate women's periods. If you could clarify this for me, I would be very grateful). 

Today I can see some very feminine curves in my body. Sometimes I run my hand over my butt and feel pleasure, so I think: Is the pleasure coming from touching a female body or from feeling a male hand on me? I honestly don't know the answer. I am bisexual and I have a lot of difficulty understanding myself. When I am as a woman I like to be treated as a woman, the other side the same (I praticaly abandoned my masculine side socialy, but I like to be with girls some times in Virtual Reality, also with men. The realism is amazing) I only fear one thing: Losing the sexual pleasure I get from touching myself. I don't know if this pleasure comes from my masculine side or my feminine side. But if I become a woman physically and mentally, maybe I will no longer find it fun to touch a female butt like mine. In other words, maybe the pleasure I get from being a woman comes from my masculine side, from having a female body at my disposal 24/7... or not! Maybe the time brings the answer... at the moment everything is fine.