Didi,
I think my body reacts slowly to the changes, when I started BO I didn't notice any mental changes for at least 3 months, even then I thought maybe I might be imagining it, physical changes started at about 12 months. I didn't realize how much BO had helped my mental state until I stopped and I felt kinda empty so I started back up. Right now I don't miss it at all, so the estradiol must be taking it's place, because I don't have that empty feeling.

Being a recovering alcoholic I can say it wasn't withdrawal from BO, withdrawals suck. I guess I was born to live between two genders, because I feel a completeness now, I enjoy being a man but I also being a woman. It probably sounds crazy to anyone reading this, but maybe I am. I fight wildland fires for a living so an argument can be made about my sanity

Thanks again for the good feedback.