14-09-2024, 04:34 PM
I believe the fear of losing our original selves is something many people doing NBE struggle to face, especially when they decide to "purge" and stop. I've personally started and stopped numerous times and lost relationships because of my NBE routine. Sometimes I wasn’t honest with my girlfriends, and sometimes I was, but either way, they didn’t understand—or saw me as less of a man because of it.
One of my exes even blamed an abortion on the fact that she knew I wasn’t going to stop feminizing, something she hid from me for two years. She kept stringing me along, but I always sensed something was off. It really takes a lot of deep soul-searching and self-awareness to fully grasp the situation many of us find ourselves in.
The biggest lesson I've learned is to be upfront from day one, so I never end up in that kind of situation again. Lately, I've been finding women who understand me, who want to be intimate, and who appreciate my choices.
Still, my biggest fear is that I’ll be alone on this journey forever, constantly craving companionship or fearing judgment from others. But in the end, their opinions don't matter—this is my body, my choice, and my life.
You either accept me or you don’t. It’s that simple.
What triggers the "purge" for me is the anxiety of living up to others' expectations while hiding my true self. People often see me in ways I've never shown them. I only share my real self with those I trust not to judge, but those people are rare.
One of my exes even blamed an abortion on the fact that she knew I wasn’t going to stop feminizing, something she hid from me for two years. She kept stringing me along, but I always sensed something was off. It really takes a lot of deep soul-searching and self-awareness to fully grasp the situation many of us find ourselves in.
The biggest lesson I've learned is to be upfront from day one, so I never end up in that kind of situation again. Lately, I've been finding women who understand me, who want to be intimate, and who appreciate my choices.
Still, my biggest fear is that I’ll be alone on this journey forever, constantly craving companionship or fearing judgment from others. But in the end, their opinions don't matter—this is my body, my choice, and my life.
You either accept me or you don’t. It’s that simple.
What triggers the "purge" for me is the anxiety of living up to others' expectations while hiding my true self. People often see me in ways I've never shown them. I only share my real self with those I trust not to judge, but those people are rare.