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CM,

Sorry, but there’s not a better place to post this than here. The highs the lows, and the number 12 dead in the middle of the ass.  I said I knew it was coming, just didn’t know when. Well I just felt it dead center of my ass and it hurts so bad.

I just found out that the two mental health professionals writing my clearance letters will not be excepted.  How can you except the news, the feelings are so devastating.  I’ve gone from looking for air fares to total devastation.  The expense wasted, the hours reliving your painful past, all up in smoke with one key stroke.

What to do now?  Sit and cry, well I I’m doing that now. It doesn’t help, I don’t want to give up. The only thing I know to do is when my wife wakes is to cry some more.  Lean on her and see if we together can figure this heart breaking gate out.  I don’t know how much more she can take..

I don’t want to quit, I don’t want this journey to end.  I can’t continue being locked in this body. Maybe my rock can figure it out.

How can the gate keepers be so cruel.  MONEY,

Caylee 

What’s left of her.