01-11-2013, 12:16 AM
Hello everyone.
I'm not sure how much sense this post will make, but it's something I want to share.
Yesterday I got the sudden urge to dress up for Halloween. I was thinking of dressing in black fem clothes: black blouse, black skirt, black nylons, black heels, along with a black wig and breast forms. Experiencing this reminded me of my recurring desire to crossdress during my pre-pm days. The only distinction between now and then is the absence of the erotic element. All of this got me thinking about the significance crossdressing has had in my life and how it coexists with the brain rewiring brought about by pm.
While it's too late to dress up for Halloween, I've had the idea of dressing up for Thanksgiving instead! Granted, even though I probably won't do this, this sort of thinking hasn't occurred to me before. Perhaps I can attribute this change to brain rewiring?
Even though pm has dramatically altered my motives for crossdressing, I still have much nostalgia about all of my crossdressing memories. One particular trait I always enjoyed is how crossdressing inspired me to try new things and push the envelope, despite the fact I'm otherwise a reserved and cautious person. Crossdressing makes my life more interesting in its own way, and it's a reminder of how I can overcome my fears and inhibitions.
Thoughts anyone? (I'm hoping I don't sound like some crazy person going on a rant.)
I'm not sure how much sense this post will make, but it's something I want to share.
Yesterday I got the sudden urge to dress up for Halloween. I was thinking of dressing in black fem clothes: black blouse, black skirt, black nylons, black heels, along with a black wig and breast forms. Experiencing this reminded me of my recurring desire to crossdress during my pre-pm days. The only distinction between now and then is the absence of the erotic element. All of this got me thinking about the significance crossdressing has had in my life and how it coexists with the brain rewiring brought about by pm.
While it's too late to dress up for Halloween, I've had the idea of dressing up for Thanksgiving instead! Granted, even though I probably won't do this, this sort of thinking hasn't occurred to me before. Perhaps I can attribute this change to brain rewiring?
Even though pm has dramatically altered my motives for crossdressing, I still have much nostalgia about all of my crossdressing memories. One particular trait I always enjoyed is how crossdressing inspired me to try new things and push the envelope, despite the fact I'm otherwise a reserved and cautious person. Crossdressing makes my life more interesting in its own way, and it's a reminder of how I can overcome my fears and inhibitions.
Thoughts anyone? (I'm hoping I don't sound like some crazy person going on a rant.)