Everything you’re describing, the clarity, the euphoria, the budding, even the sudden “oh crap this is real” panic, is so common for folks who start to see themselves more clearly for the first time. There’s no perfect timeline for figuring out your next steps, but it’s okay to just sit with this for now. You don’t need to have all the answers yet. A gender-affirming therapist can help you sort through what this means, especially with a family in the picture.