[PerkyAcups]

I really appreciate the response.  Sometimes I think I share too much.  But sometimes I need to talk about things I can't go anywhere else for.  And I figure other people might be going through similar struggles.  

I am concerned about letting the genie out of the bottle.  I have let a lot of genies out recently.  I'll give you a little personal backstory.  For 20 years I have struggled with online exhibitionism and a few fetishes.  This is what led me to growing breasts.  Keeping these secrets for so many years was putting a big strain on me and our marriage.  I needed help.  It was really hard, but 3 months ago I told her my problem and that I needed to see a therapist.  She was amazingly supportive and from that day our marriage has gotten stronger and stronger.  We both have started really opening up about things.  We have talked a lot about why I am in therapy. She has said she is not perfect and she has no judgements for things I have done. And that I can only bring embarrassment on myself.  And that is proud of me for all of my work and honesty. We have had more sex in the last 3 months than maybe the last 2 years.  

So...all of this new open communication has me wanting no secrets with her.  I am going to tell her the truth.  It is going to be really hard. I thought I was going to carry this secret to the grave.  I can't imagine anyone else knowing I grew purposely grew breasts.  I am going to tell her I was at a weak point in my addiction.  I took things that  
could cause breasts to grow.  In the beginning it wasn't about wanting breasts, it was about feeling that dopamine rush fearing I might actually grow breasts. That I took it too far and grew breasts.  That now somedays I hate what I did, but most days I like my breasts.  I need to wear a bra but also enjoy the kinkiness of wearing one.  And that somedays I wish my breasts were a little bigger.  

I am nervous that once she knows I did it on purpose she might not be as supportive.  I think she is going to be surprised that I would do such a stupid thing, but in the end she will be okay.  I am a little nervous once she knows they are actually real breasts and not just man boobs she will not let me go topless around the house anymore.  Saying something like you grew breasts so now you have to cover them like breasts.  But maybe knowing they are real breasts she will like them more. She likes breasts on females.  Couple nights ago, I let her see me in my bra for the first time.  When I took it off, she sucked on my nipples.  

Whatever happens, I need to tell her.  

PerkyAcups - I have really enjoyed reading your posts.  Thanks for sharing so much detail.  In regards to coming clean with your wife I would caution you to be careful, if you are not sure how your wife will react.  Nobody knows your wife as good as you do but once you come completely clean in regards to your breast growth there is no putting the genie back in the bottle, so to speak.  Woman are notorious for saying one thing but thinking another.  She may be supportive when you first tell her but change her mind once she has had a chance to think it over.

Perhaps you and your wife could have more discussions about your breasts?  You could ask her point blank if she is ashamed of you for having man boobs?  Or does she think of you being less of a man, for wearing a bra?  This might give you a good indication on where her head is at.  You could also be positive about it, and say something like, "I know this might seem weird but I sometimes like how my breasts look and feel at times.  I enjoy how sensitive they have become, especially when you suck on them".  See if she continues to respond positively to discussions regarding your breasts.  Maybe ask her if you should have a mammogram as a way to start further discussions about your breasts?   I know you have already had a lot of discussions with her and she seems to be very supportive so perhaps what I am suggesting is not needed?  Just my thoughts.

Let us know how it goes.