[prostatenipple]

Hi

Very quick reply from me. I am also not a native English speaker (although I am fluent), and live in the UK.


I don't truly know what I am. I may need people on the forum to help me work it out.


In the biological or genetic sense, I am AMAB, and I presume I have XY chromosomes.
I present as male externally: I sound male, I look male, I have male features.

Except, I also:

1. have very little body hair (except face, head, pubic area)
   
2. have low testosterone
   
3. have gynocomastia (ultrasound confirmed on one nipple, and the other nipple is feeling the same just smaller)
   

I can't say that I feel 100% male.

I view a lot of men with distrust (don't know why) unless I know them already.

And also:

1. I have crossdressed in secret. My earliest memory was when I was about 7 years old.
   
2. I have a stash of female underwear hidden.
   
3. Anytime I watch (hetrosexual) porn I secretly focus on and assume the identity of any female performer.
   
4. Last 2 years my fantasies of being or becoming a woman have increased in intensity and frequency.
   
5. I have been taking PM and other NBE substances for the past 4 years.
   

I want to have breasts and larger areolas, and I don't fully understand why.
When I went to the doctor to ask about checking my breast, the slightest mention of having surgery to remove it made me wince in horror.

I often catch myself off-guard flicking or playing with my nipples during the day.

Maybe my low testosterone means I was always pre-deposed to take this journey?

Am I MtF? Am I trans? Am I cisgender? Am I intersex?

I don't mind what other people call me, at least at this stage. But I feel I don't know myself so it's ok either way.