10-08-2011, 03:50 PM
"Having is not so pleasing a thing as wanting?" I think that was a line from the original Star Trek. Spock was commenting on human nature.
For myself, it's like an urge to do it went away. I do sometimes wonder if I am happier this way, then usually decide it isn't about happier or not happier for me. It is something that just *is*. I don't see trying to change back. I don't see growing anymore. It's kind of off my plate as a to-do. My life moves on to other things, pretty much unrelated to this. One distraction removed, another added, etc.
For myself, it's like an urge to do it went away. I do sometimes wonder if I am happier this way, then usually decide it isn't about happier or not happier for me. It is something that just *is*. I don't see trying to change back. I don't see growing anymore. It's kind of off my plate as a to-do. My life moves on to other things, pretty much unrelated to this. One distraction removed, another added, etc.