[karen]

Hi again Chrissie,

Thanks for worrying about me .... you're very kind.

I'm a very strong person .... I tend to sway others rather than them swaying me. Probably the thing that I do the most is overthink everything. I've been posting pretty much every little thought that crosses my mind. I've been doing reading here BUT I've been doing LOTS of reading elsewhere.

Sometimes I read something that when I think about my own situation ... like the fact that I never had any desires to be a woman at an early age ..... that I've played with cross dressing a few times over the years never really committing to it .... and now that I have started HPT all of a sudden these feelings start to get stronger it makes me wonder. I haven't either said that "its only the testim talking" or that "finally my inner feelings are coming out" ... but it sure has me digging deeper and getting more informed .... analysing feelings that I am having while looking at whats going on in my life.

Honestly I haven't ruled out "experiencing it a little" and I DO HEED your warning of not "playing" with PM .... at the same time, even when I dig deep and try to listen to my inner self it doesn't say "I want to be a woman" .... I'd love to be able to go back and forth at will for awhile .... see what it's like on either side .... maybe then I would want one side more than the other .... or maybe I'd like to keep being able to be both ....

If I should decide to do anything it wll be very slowly .... and I will cut back on the testim slowly while doing so so that I don't have two things fighting each other.

Thanks

Great BIG Hugs .... Karen